The nightmare level dream

Some kind of strip club I had lost some thc oil. At the end the stripper who had it had just finished doing a job and had a bloody vagina. She said to her friend as the security guard and I tried to ask for the oil, something like "no naynay gi I Joe oil." Nanay (a similar looking stripper) didn't hear and kept moving in with cleaning her up until the stripper had to scream ""NAYNAY NOO! GI JOE OIL!"" It was deeply disturbing and I woke up.

There was something else about a car that had been sold to get there or something. Car gone, stripper and thc oil there...

Today I'm trying to find a deeper way to reduce my outward competitiveness and aggression. Be a cooler kinder guy. Down to earth. Things like that. Just less confrontational. No more intense "up in people's faces" attitude. Someone who attracts people and inspires people (to do things for me). I like friends, romantic lovers, and professional networking people. I need better social skills. Compassion? Easygoing? Listening? Conscientious? Patience? Temper? Lol. Time to change myself to see how to grow those. What is holding those back?

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Experienced a dream where I was somehow in an alternative present. Friends lived with me and some hot girls were over, but I was also an iraq war vet. We had to run together, doing drills and things like that. It was crazy. Mysterious. It seemed like we were living in Vegas.

Blair with house of childhood, peter kuhn, and a wonderful disabled actor

This guy who looked like tanmay but could have been rayc had been born without the ability to see and was missing another thing too. He could still speak and share so much love. Such love. I wondered what it would be like to not see and felt a lot of compassion.

I was at the sailing club and Peter kuhn was there but there wasn't much else going on and no one was interested in me so much any more. I walked from there to this old white house in the woods where my parents had lived when I was two. It was really creepy and old, no longer lived in. There was old dusty furniture upstairs and  the bedrooms were down stairs.

The guy of love gave his love through acting even though he seemed incredibly unlikely to be someone who would be good at doing so.

The old house reminds me of the Blair Witch house.

Dreamed about truth, the poor areas if abq, and the kids crime tactics like "video tape your kids, we aren't responsible" etc

Cancer and best friend

I dreamed I made a best friend like Saunders, and I had cancer.

There were a lot of creative and upscale shopping centers. A centered salon booth in the middle of an open part of the mall, but leases there only lasted 2-3 years.

Somehow I was accepting if the cancer and death potential.

I think the cancer is my potential to lose the mh recovery in losing Dr kappeler.

The Saunders person is related to hanging out with allen and Andy, and maybe the Saunders type is related to not worrying so much, having fun.

The centered salon booth is related to acting and the look needed for the parts.

Last night's dream

It was about acting.  A lot of acting.

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The night before last - interesting.  American communism.  Controlled by the chinese, a heroine who saves a group of americans (me included) that can see into the chinese oligarchy and come to terms with them.

Dream

Started off w cal corps thing. Fb group invite summer session cal corps. Grandma and Patricia there visiting. Mark walhberg film, his son really pissed at his father. Movie about golf or something.

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Somehow bernie sanders was trying to do a rally walk in Lompoc but he couldn't get enough people like in the east coast.  Someone messed up the old apple computer that jake from santa maria recreation and parks dept liked to use.  Some girls were in trouble, you like 19 or so, one had an amazing beyond amazing ass.  Instead of helping bernie the two girls were in swimsuits and i was able to position them both across my lap on their stomachs, the nice ass one closer to me and just sit there admiring the hell out of it.

IOT Dream

Had a revelation level dream about the ‪#‎IoT‬ (internet of things). I know, not another crazy idea from Nick. But whatever, here we are with another one. It's only a matter of time until nearly all traditional jobs are replaced by machines that add more value to our lives than humans could. Basically, in the dream there were facial recognition cameras everywhere. Machines had taken over all traditional jobs as we know them. I picked up some trash on the ground, about 30 feet behind me were senior citizens enjoying life in an area that looked a lot like the overly sunny, grassy area betwen VLSB and Moffit Library. Of course the whole world around me had cameras everywhere. Facial recognition was all around. As I picked up the trash, my currency karma points went up. That's the revelation. All jobs will disappear and then we'll be left to generate karma points by doing things. That'd be pretty motivating. To have an economy based on karma and the creativity of seizing it with extremely smart machines watching us doing good deeds. Another signature crazy idea from Nick. *Bows*

I don't know why there were 3 senior citizens behind me.  

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Dream

Signed up for Martha's class but there was some kind of wait list and i had to go to a huge mall and walk all the way down and around to get to this place in the mall to buy gasoline for the class

Dream

I had a dream that my code reviews started disintegrating when I gave a bad code project a negative review.  This dream could have been inspired by feelings generated from telling people about this job.  Do I get negative about myself and project that outwardly when after I tell people about my self?  That seems to be the intuition.

Great time

Mr st john and the time we had  at his 10 yr reunion.  Open up to the experience. Flowers open up to the experience. Sun. Enjoying that experience today I was closed off - through fear at first from self I consciousness, later through liability in judgment. Overcame it to see people without that judgment. Experienced them as humans they were. Very fun people. Understanding. Easy to know. No more anger. Look at that. Happy. Compassionate.

Dream

There was some elusive girl who was really nice and we had fun together until she found someone in better shape than me. Maybe another girl too. Almost eerie about her. One of those known her all my life Jung type things.

Alberto Garcia giving me a bike to ride. Implicit desire to work out. Lived with mom. Coops similar to previous dream. Billy and honey around. Trying to find Chelsea unzer, someone i wanted to talk to. Found billy right at the end of the dream in a park.

Dream

Ryan Orban, and myself, running a drug store.  Putting things together in the aisles.  We went somewhere and I'm not sure if he started the drug store with me.  I can't remember.  Another part of the dream I was making wax hitting ceramic bubblers.

It represented the chance to meet a cooper who didn't use weed, this showed me that weed is not the only way to be a cooper.  Ryan is a highly functional and extremely ambitious person who has succeeded on many levels.  Participating with him in Zipfian academy was like working in the drug store.  The ceramic bubblers showed me that there was a strong influence that said weed was the way to be cool, to fit in, to indel in the vortex and cosmic creativity that existed in CZ.

Inspiration: electric sheep, making money with udacity, his pic from the burning man

Dream

Had a crazy dream.  From being in the coop making wax hitting bubblers, to many other things.  it was just crazy.

I also like the saying "balls deep" like you're fucking so deep your balls get in it.

Gullible to the superficial

La is fake. My eyes super xray seeing through superficial seeing through the vanity into its trivial, lighthearted nothing clear but bit empty just water maybe empty but that feels cold and alone

Its like gullible people get lost. Like I was. Taken by the selling power of marketing that is such a dark closet.

Margie Haber.

Dream

I was in some sort of house. It was a love dream. I remember angie from CZ being there. Not sure what that was about. Not sure of much of it at all. There was a lot of longing.

Dream

Some people didn't want to pay me for my acting but when they found out how goof I was, they were embarrassed and wish they had.

I also remember things about east LA and trying to live there or something, but I dont quite remember everything.

Dream and stuff

Hey, soooo...

That evil Dr Carson on in equality LA LA LA that chris Spence posted. I returned fire with a MASSIVE post about inequality.
The dream I had last night was that I beat chuey at wrestling and got back on the team. I was more alpha than coach or something because I didn't give a fuck. I was on my team and I was good. I wanted to beat others, which I never wanted when on the team.

I was beating others.

I talked about my injury, my feelings, my opinions. If he didn't like it, fuck him.

Not there to be nice. On the mat OR off. Coach used to always talk about the hw from Arizona who was the nicest guy off the mat, but on the mat he was really tough.

Somehow that post and not giving a fuck freed me to a higher person/self. Maybe it was R coming by earlier that shared some feelings w how I felt later. The gay parent thing truly was behind the intensity of the post.

So, is that that then? Am I a man like the straight outta Compton movie showed the other men bad ass and speaking out?

Maybe just a better forum for the ideas would take it to the next level.

Chinese double boiled chicken soup

That time I was on the wharf in the Chinese people brought chicken soup double boiled chicken soup

Dream

Intense sex dream. Old okc girl from last time ii was here. Some task rabbit and okc thrown together at end. Weirs older woman. *do you like my titties?" Trying to get more TaskRabbit

This confetti pop idea

Get the good lights, white background, and solid camera. Pop the confetti and take tons of photos of it in mid air

Ocd

Like that ocd when you gotta drive across the country but have to get off and on at every offramp

Dream

Most horrific dream ever. Weirs clown suit demon hell place. Half hospital half hell world. Had to drink this stuff and throw it up for some type of stomach cancer test. The anisthesiaoligist was really nice but I acted too tough to need it. Then everyone just started going crazy. Anyone who questioned it would get severely hurt. The main demons couldn't be hurt. Smashing their faces with sledge hammers took several direct hits just to know them out. Finally we succeeded and left as I woke up. Reminds me of hospital.

Sounds of sprinklers on metal

The California iceicle

8/31 Dream, Self understanding, Buying thing funniness

Working in a tech-non profit thing w/ tamoya Thompson I saw how she wanted to help while I was hesitant to help. Weird product icons on screen echoed my first job.

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It's really hard to do anything when I'm not connected to a group. Public Outreach, NA/AA, (Ken and weed), etc. I need people or I flounder.

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A group of workers, if you could buy anything what would you buy? "A time machine so I could go back and take back all the mistakes I've ever made." Totally souring a pleasant mood.  Just like when I was at TMHA gg farm.

8/30 Dream

Was getting PT from niel burrow. Some stuff about Seattle and where I was living. Had song stuck in my head. Thought about doing task rabbit until I got enough $ for music set up. Had a great song in my head. An edm song that ommittes parts of the melody yo make it even more head banging. A unique girl encouraged me to get data on my cell phone. I was about to before I some up. Was very happy about it. Kind of rainy that day.

8/29 Dream

Dream sottig next to Luis from rec and park dept, he was getting weeds or something from a place. My mom took some girl out to eat in a part of nm I remember only from another dream. There was a mall we accidentally drove through, it was nice and clean, but the lower area had too many mentally ill. B4 I woke up, we were supposed to make out w another girl in the class that looked like the dig IMG lab. It was supposedly an acting class.Roxane was going to give me some money for meth. Luis was trying to get me weed from a club, even though I had already been there and decided not to get any. That I didn't want any.

8/27 Dream

Some really rich persons house with lots of people, but a medieval tinge and toward the end of the dream a closed door where my favorite girl I'd met had a wishing sound (billy licking?) someone said was another girl trying to cut her head off. I faced the darkness asking then why they wanted to do that.

8/26 Dream, RR lobster, Elissa Econ, and Italian Lawyer

Had a dream where me Austin and someone else were running a watermelon juice factory and had to use weird intimidation examples to maintain control

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Quiet night trying to fall asleep a beep like a car backing up, getting closer, very eerie

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Elissa Roy help getting friend to London school of econ

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At red lobster w r before getting the water, I saw an extremely obese Italian man with an oxygen supply attached to his nose talking w other lawyer looking people, big binders everywhere and he said, "they got a warrant for my client," in an amused tone.

Dream 8/25 and OKC ChicForChrist

Had a weird dream. Partially influenced by the shit talking I sent to Neil over linked in. I think I was kicking his ass or something. There were also some people I was working with on something. I'm kinda disturbed for sending him the nasty message, but a part of me feels food doing it

 ChicforChrist OKC profile "Hi! My name is Irene Gilardone. I am 20 years old and I was in 4-H. My favorite artist is Adam Young, creator of Owl City. Not a lot of you know about him, but that's ok! I love reading, writing, and singing. I will be working at Walmart soon, so I'm pretty excited! I am looking for a long term relationship. The man who wants me, is going to have to work hard to get me, and he's also going to have to pass the inspection of my parents. So if you're one of those guys who just wants to use me, word of advise: don't even bother talking to me. You shouldn't take advantage of girls just for your own pleasure, you should want a girl, because you're planning to marry her for the long run. Now that that's been covered, another thing I will cover is that I am a Chrisitian, and I will NOT tolerate a lot of cussing. And I will also not tolerate you putting my religion down. I will stand up for my beliefs and if you don't like it, then do yourself a favor and don't bother talking to me. Now that you know some info about me, feel free to contact me! :) {takes 1 to know one} quote from the movie: Fireproof What I’m doing with my life •working •writing stories •sing for the fun of it I’m really good at I'm really good at singing Writing stories Making it co-workers laugh The six things I could never do without •my phone •singing •reading •writing •laughing •working I spend a lot of time thinking about •what my favorite actors are doing •why my brother hates me so much •will I ever get married On a typical Friday night I am •singing •writing You should message me if If you wanna hang out Love a good one on one conversation Love someone cray cray and random"

Dream 8/24

Another crazy dream, this time at a party with kids younger than me. All very young. Felt almost like a coop. Everyone was very mean and self centered. Police had to be called. St first it was fun. Smoked with david wild and another guy whose back pack told us it was a a hsze with no cbds. Then to the other party. Treated like shit. Traumatized. Police didn't respond. Lawyer sent. People arrested. The meanest girl not arrested. Walked home in the morning right past the house with stairs at the bottom of the hill on Millstone.

Dream 8/23

Had a very weird dream last night. I was given a prize or something that looked like the needle size of thumbtack while I was standing of over some kind of sea world pool and when I blue it the orca sized Grey dolphin would come up and smile and play. Then I was around an indoor pool making joke after joke, amongst a crowd standing around the pool. There were some people there and I kept making jokes. One that I can remember was said to Ashley Newman and Alyssa - why doesn't ice cube go into the pool- because he'll melt. I was told that without charisma I wouldn't get very far and they left. I proceeded to mock charisma by looking at the girl next to me and pretending to be charismatic.

Dream 8/22

Had a wild dream about living in an LA sober living w my own room, it cost $855.91 or something and had a $50 research fee. The manager was exactly like a previous manager from the east Oakland sober living. I kept saying funny things like "I'm paying out the ass to live here"

Huge lines of cars, mark wahlberg with a nice car parked in the doorway of the house, waiting to get in, with hott sorority types running around. Somehow I was paired w an easy to crush on girl who lived on the ground floor, tho she was not into me and didn't realize me yet

How to get rich by living in China! Top 5 reasons!

I'd like to help you in gaining wealth by living in China.

The idea is that China is a capitalistic country with communistic sentiments.  America is a capitalistic country with individualistic sentiments.

Here is how I know you will get rich if you decided to transfer your life over to the The Middle Kingdom.  Nick's Top 3, so to speak:

1)  Country

The people in China believe in their country.  After the media titulates everything that happens in American politics, no one is left with a positive taste in their mouths.  Remember JFK saying, "Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country!"  In my opinion, most citizens of China are greatly and relentlessly pursuing this question.  This takes the focus off how bad everything is they have to do, and makes it a privilidge they can be contributing to the greater good.  An honor, so to speak.

If we can start looking at work as a form of honor, any work, then we will have made a great stride in catching up to China.

2)  Mindfulness

There is a rare peace that will come over you when you start working in a factory.  In China, this has helped a significant portion achieve some enlightenment.

You can start practicing this now.  When you feel that voice in your head say it's time to do something else, just listen to it.  Acknowledge it.  Feel the awareness around and all that is.

State of being and presence, the ultimate gift of living in the now, can be found in doing these mindful exercises where one is forced to overcome "boredom."  Think about how much more peaceful TV would be if it did not have to "kill" boredom.

3)  Respect

 

Standards for excellence are beyond what you can even dream about.  Instead of hearing how your coworker filled his bong with pot and good ganja the night before, or how someone was too drunk and had to call in...

In China, you will line up military style if there is to be a meeting.  Order and hierarchy is essential and respect will be your principle.

4) Beyond Capitalism

Once you start realizing the potential, you can start moving up.  Every major country around the world ships its resources to China.  After that, every country buys its own resources back at a huge premium from China's factories.

Once you see that the exploitation of Earth's resources is as easy as getting them all to one part of the world, changing them, and bringing them back to the rest of the world...you're going to realize that it's just a cycle.  Get ready for Macao!

5) Harmonious Society

China has much bigger fish to fry that the Jesus fish.  Crime, divorce, tensions between forsaken farmers and land developers.  China has freedom of religion now and many other things.  That's right, fights over gay marriage probably aren't welcome when there are 700,000,000 displaced farmers wondering where their lands went.  Over 60% of China's population will have to transition from agriculture to urban life during this generation.  It is if the United States had to transition everyone's lifestyle, more than twice.