Dream and stuff

Hey, soooo...

That evil Dr Carson on in equality LA LA LA that chris Spence posted. I returned fire with a MASSIVE post about inequality.
The dream I had last night was that I beat chuey at wrestling and got back on the team. I was more alpha than coach or something because I didn't give a fuck. I was on my team and I was good. I wanted to beat others, which I never wanted when on the team.

I was beating others.

I talked about my injury, my feelings, my opinions. If he didn't like it, fuck him.

Not there to be nice. On the mat OR off. Coach used to always talk about the hw from Arizona who was the nicest guy off the mat, but on the mat he was really tough.

Somehow that post and not giving a fuck freed me to a higher person/self. Maybe it was R coming by earlier that shared some feelings w how I felt later. The gay parent thing truly was behind the intensity of the post.

So, is that that then? Am I a man like the straight outta Compton movie showed the other men bad ass and speaking out?

Maybe just a better forum for the ideas would take it to the next level.